Our Cloth Diapering Experience

This post is about our experience with cloth diapering. If you have no interest in reading about this, here’s a link to Runner’s World or you can check out the things we like & stuff we use on Amazon.

This post was written when Rowan was 7 months old (and never published because #momlife) and updated at 9 months old.

We are 9 months in to our diapering journey and made it a solid 7 months of exclusively cloth diapering. Honestly, it’s much easier than I imagined. There’s a learning curve, but once you’re doing it I think it’s just as simple and convenient as using disposables – with a ton of benefits. I feel like “cloth diaper” is an older term that makes you think of a bulky white towel with pins to hold it in place. It’s come a long way and now better fits the term “reusable diaper”.

We chose to cloth diaper for several reasons:

  • We wanted to avoid the toxic chemicals commonly found in disposables
  • We wanted to reduce our waste in the landfills
  • We wanted to save money

When you first get started, the amount of information is so overwhelming. I just wanted someone to tell me what to buy and do and I’d do it. Hopefully sharing what I learned and bought will be that for you – or at least a starting point.

There are several types of reusable diapers, and this is a list of popular styles and the ones we considered:

  • All-in-one (waterproof outer layer and sewn-in absorbent layer) This style is most like a disposable in the sense that you grab it, put it on, and instead of throwing it away, you waste to reuse.
  • Pocket diapers (waterproof outer layer with pocket to insert absorbent pads) This style is similar to All-in-one with how you use it, but there is an added step of inserting an absorbent pad into the pocket before use.
  • Shell (waterproof shell) This is most similar to the original way to cloth diaper. You place an absorbent layer inside the waterproof shell.

What we use:

We chose the Pocket Diaper style. Why? After washing, they dry much faster than the All-in-one because the absorbent layer is not sewn in and they are less expensive. Also, the pocket holds the absorbent pad in place much better than just the shell.

We also use cloth wipes. At first I was using disposables Water Wipes (and still use these) but using cloth wipes makes the storing and washing much as it’s one less thing to sort and toss when changing a diaper. (And one less thing that ends up in a landfill). How do we get them wet? I use a Peri bottle like what they give you at the hospital and just keep water in it. There are a ton of homemade solutions you can find on Pinterest, but water works perfectly (and it’s free and easy).


At first, cloth diapering seemed extremely expensive, and it can be if you buy the popular name brands that run $16-$20 per diaper. We found a few really great websites that sell less expensive but still great quality diapers for around $5-$6 each. Thefluffypenguincompany.com is my favorite but I’ve also shopped happybeehinds.com.

If you choose the Pocket Diaper style, you have to buy an absorbent insert for the pocket. I found a super cheap hack that costs $1 per insert – a folded up flour sack towel that you can find at Target or Walmart. If you search for this on Pinterest or youtube, you’ll find a ton of ways to fold it.. I mainly use Charcoal Bamboo Inserts because no folding is required, they have really good absorbency, and they lay flat in the pocket.

How many diapers should you buy?

This is a tough one. I have 25 pocket diapers. When Rowan was younger and wet them more freuqnetly, I was washing diapers every other day. Now that she’s a bit older, I can go 2-3 days between washes. So the size of your diaper stash really depends on how often you want to do Diaper laundry, and how frequently you’re changing diapers.

In total, I’ve spent around $400 for diapers, inserts, accessories. This also includes things I’ve bought but don’t use often (trial and error when finding out what I like and what works for us). I ran some numbers and based on the disposable diapers we would buy, I’d spend $400 in 6 months. So with Rowan at 9 months old, we’ve broken even. And if we continue to cloth diaper, that’s all we’ll ever spend. AND can reuse them for future kiddos.

How to wash them:

Fluffloveuniversity.com has a great resource for washing diapers. You can look up your exact washer and exact detergent and they’ll give you a whole routine. I follow the routine loosely. We use Seventh Generation Power Plus detergent and I wash the diapers once which removes the “dirtiness” of them and then twice which cleans them. Once the “dirtiness” changes as they begin solids, you’ll need to spray it off into the toilet. I have these two gadgets to help with that. You may think this is gross and such a hassle, but if you read the instructions on a package of disposables, you’re supposed to empty the contents of the diaper into the toilet also before throwing away.

How to store dirty diapers:

We have a small trash can from Target and a waterproof, reusable liner.

When we’re on-the-go, we carry this reusable wetbag.

Disposable diapers:

We do use disposables at nighttime and when we are traveling. We were experiencing leaks at night with our cloth diaper and decided to just use disposable. We also use disposables while traveling for more than 3 days and if we don’t have access to a washer/dryer. While traveling, we use doggy poo bags to discard the diaper in.

Like I mentioned, we made it several solid months of using cloth diapers to the point of breaking even financially. After traveling around the holidays, we got in the habit of using disposables. Rowan is also eating a lot more solids so her “dirty” diapers are much more time-consuming to clean. Honestly, there is no reason we shouldn’t still be using cloth diapers and I do on occasion. But it’s kind of like getting out of a habit and trying to start it up again. Maybe this blog post will motivate me. I approached cloth diapering as al all-or-nothing mentality, but there is nothing wrong with mixing it up finding what works for you.

This post may have been information overload for you, and I’ve definitely been there. If you want to cloth diaper, it’s  absolutely doable and you will get it figured out. Sometimes it takes just ordering a few things and learning as you go. But also remember to cut yourself some slack and it doesn’t have to be all-or-nothing.

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Rowan is 9 months old & I’m racing (again)

Hello people!! We are still here. Just livin’ life and not blogging quite as much. Although, I do have plenty of time since Rowan still only naps on me. But I have chosen to do less productive things like Netflix & Hulu. However, I have been attempting to read more during naptimes but I suppose I can take sometime to blog as well. We just finished up Grace Based Discipline and Wife’s Secret Guide to Happiness and are starting Grace Filled Marriage. Do you spot a theme? Yes, I’m needing a little self-improvement after letting the dust settle with becoming a mom. 

So Rowan is 9 months old and doing so well. She is getting a little more mobile which has opened a whole new world for her to explore – including light sockets, electrical wires, and kitchen drawers – so we’ve been baby-proofing. She is the best eater in the world. This girl will eat any and everything we give her. Brussels Sprouts, beet smoothie, broccoli, all of it!! I am beyond excited about this. Her Our (lets be honest, I eat her leftovers) favorite is sweet potato + coconut oil + cinnamon.

Before you get jealous of my amazing veggie-eating baby, remember I am writing this blog as I unproductively sit in a dark room for the third time today because my baby refuses to nap anywhere else but in my arms. I can’t complain because she’s only little once, but it does get tough when dinner needs to be made, chores need to get done, and miles need to get run. So yes, I have a spectacular eater but we have or hangups. Oh, she also doesn’t sleep through the night. Up every 3-4 hours actually, but at least she’s in her crib for nighttime sleep.

With the lack of sleep, you can imagine how my training is going. Let’s just say, I’ve been posting a lot of “easy 30 minutes on the treadmill” lately. She was kind of a rockstar sleeper a few months ago and I was training really well – speed work, long runs. So I signed up for a marathon. And obviously that’s when Rowan would go through a sleep regression and derail all of it. But that’s alright. I feel ready to run it. I built up to a 20 miler and have put in training on par for the average runner. I’ve had to get out of the mindset that I need to be training like I use to in order to run a marathon. That’s not true. I’m not in shape to nor am I trying to PR. But I will finish and I think feel alright. PLUS it’s a hilly course so I plan to run the first relatively flat 14 miles then run/walk the hills with my #motherrunner friend who signed up with me. AND the Miracle Match Marathon in my hometown and my favorite race – so it’ll be a fun experience for sure.

I’m sure I’ll chase some unicorns again one day and try and make it back to Boston but that’s not the season of life I am in now. Honestly, I’m not sure I’ll sign up for another marathon after this one for a while. With limited time to train, I kind of want to keep my workouts short and intentional with speedwork and strength training and maybe work towards a super fast 5K or Half Marathon.

At 9 months post-partum, I feel pretty normal again. The more Rowan grows and develops, the more interactive and a part of our family she becomes. She’s not just this tiny baby I need to feed and change every hour – she’s a tiny person, all her own. I also feel like Andrew and I are getting marriage figured out as a family of three. When we moved Rowan to her own room at 5 months old (so 4 months ago) our living room TV woke her up. There went our Netflix binges. We found an old card game and started playing. That’s been our ‘thing’ ever since and it’s been the best thing for our marriage. We have since tested the TV waking her up and it turns out it was just a coincidence that first night. Or was it? I think God woke her up because He knew we needed to unplug and reconnect.

Other snipets of our life at 9 months old:

  • We’ve put her in the church nursery twice. The second time went better.
  • We’ve put her in the YMCA childcare twice for mommy to workout for 20 minutes.
  • I’ve left her with my husband for maybe five times ever (other than running in our neighborhood). Yes, I’m a paranoid first-time mom.
  • We started Mommy & Me swim lessons and LOVE them.
  • I am staying home full time so have not put her in a daycare but and considering Parents Day Out one day a week in the fall.
  • Part of her not sleeping through the night (besides her dependence on nursing) is she wakes up on her hands and knees and rocks bumping her head on the crib rails. She has bruises. It’s so sad. Hoping it’s just a phase.

We created a things we love & stuff we use page on Amazon which includes our favorite games for two players. Check it out here!!


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BOB Revolution Flex – Jogging Stroller

I think any runner who becomes pregnant dreams about stroller runs with their little. Just trotting along with their mini-me giggling at the birds and staring up at them. I loved living in this ignorant bliss while pregnant. We’re 7 months in and Rowan is just now enjoying the ride more than she protests.

Before I dive into our experience, I’ll share our setup. I’ll be honest in the fact that I didn’t do a ton of research on jogging strollers. I knew the brand I wanted and went from there. Before we even considered having kids, I knew I wanted a BOB. Maybe it’s because they’re in almost every running/bike shop or because thats what my friends had, but it’s the only brand we looked at.  Needless to say, I can’t really share comparisons with you of other brands, but if you check out @thesemotherscanrun on Instagram, you’ll find a whole community of runner moms with different strollers.

Here’s BOB’s full lineup of strollers (click here). We narrowed it down to the Revolution Pro and Revolution Flex.

We chose the BOB Revolution FLEX Jogging Stroller.

Why did we chose this?

The feature that stood out the most to us was the adjustable handlebar. Since my husband and I will both be running with the stroller, we wanted to be able to change the height of the handlebar for each of us. I am 5’5” and he’s 5’11” and this makes for a more comfortable run.

The Revolution PRO also has the adjustable handlebar with added handbrakes. This seems like a really nice bonus and I think it would be great if you’re constantly running super hilly routes with some steep downhills. However, we have some hills in Waco and the thought of having handbrakes never crossed my mind. So for us, it seems unnecessary and I’m glad we didn’t spend the extra money.

Other features: (some of these features may be shared with other strollers in their line)

One feature I love about our stroller is the front wheel that either locks or swivels. You lock the wheel when running which actually makes it a ton easier and safer. You let the wheel freely swivel when just out on a walk. Turning corners with a locked wheel takes some practice, but you just pop a mini-wheely and go. The stroller is also like a skateboard in the sense that if you lean in (or guide it with your hand) a certain direction, the wheels will follow.

The seat for your child to sit in reclines which is great for stroller naps or sitting upright for snacking.

In one swift motion, the stroller is super easy to collapse and store in your trunk. I drive a Subaru Forrester and it fits easily in the back with plenty of extra room.


We added a few accessories to our stroller. The Handlebar Console with Tire Pump, Infant Car Seat Adapter for Chicco, Sun Shield, and Weather Shield. The console is a must have for water bottles, car keys, your phone, toys, gloves, and baby socks that have been kicked off. I also plan on getting a Snack Tray for when she’s a bit older and can have snacks on the go.

When can you run with your baby in the stroller?

You can find product instructions and guidelines for stroller walking/running with your baby from the BOB manual here. Talk with your physician on their opinion and advice. Your babies health and safety are far more important than your training run.

BOB makes a car seat adapter which allows you to place your baby’s car seat in the stroller. We started walking with her in the stroller at 2 weeks and used the adapter for the first 3-4 months (walking only). Around 4 months I sat Rowan in the stroller without the car seat and went on an extremely slow walk to test it out. We continued only walking until 5 months when I had to walk/run home because she was not happy. This was a great introduction into stroller running. Closer to 6 months, I felt she was really sturdy in the stroller with great head and neck control. At this point, I felt comfortable so we started running. Disclaimer: This is our personal experience and I am not suggesting you do what we did. Again, talk with your doctor and refer to the BOB manual.

Does Rowan like the stroller?

Well. Yes. And then no. Then a little. And now pretty much. When she was an infant, she’d sleep for hours in her car seat while I walked, but that was just the infant phase of babies sleeping all the time. As she got a little older and wasn’t sleeping as much, she would tolerate it a little and then scream until I held her. There were plenty of stroller walks where I ended up carrying her for over a mile home. When we started stroller running, she’d be happy for about 30 minutes if she was awake and then protest.

Now, at 7 months, she’s nornally happy or asleep. If I can time it just right (not overtired), she’ll nap for 20-40 minutes in the stroller. This is ideal for long runs. There have been several runs where she’s cried for an hour and I feel like the most selfish mom in the world. In my defense, it’s been an out-and-back route so running is the fastest way to get us back to the car AND I know she is on the verge of sleep but just fighting it. I’ve had to stop and nurse her on curbs and park benches to try and calm her and get her to nap. So not all of our long runs are pretty, but some are great!! It’s hit and miss but we’re improving.

Our longest stroller run has been 13.1 miles. And here’s how it went. Happy for mile 1. Cried mile 2-6 with one stop to calm her. Nursed her at the car and hoped she’d fall asleep. Cried mile 7-8 with one stop. Slept mile 8-12 (when run was supposed to end). Still asleep until 13.1 but I was tired. Woke up when I stopped.

I hear stroller running gets easier when babies can entertain themselves or you can give them snacks. I also assume it becomes more challenging as they grow and are heavier. Although the wind and hills have been huge factors to slow us down, I feel like running with the stroller is a decently smooth ride. It’s definitely different than running without a stroller but I also think it makes you stronger. I’ve actually come to enjoy my stroller runs more than the few times I’ve been able to run solo. There’s just something about running with a stroller that makes you feel hardcore and awesome!!

In summary, this is what we bought:

BOB Revolution Flex

Weather Shield


Handlebar Console with Tire Pump

Infant Car Seat Adapter for Chicco Keyfit 30

We plan to buy the tray as well

We run with our dog sometimes and love this hands-free leash which is necessary when stroller running (in my opinion)


If I could do it all over again, I’d buy the same stroller and accessories. We’ve been very pleased with the product and customer service.

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Rowan is 6-ish months old + I’m running a half marathon this month

Our sweet Rowan Grey is 6 months old. Well, 6-ish. Basically 7 months. I intended to wrap up this blog weeks ago but she kind of takes up a lot of time. Half of a year has gone by and everyone was right… it does go by so fast.

Where do I even begin with updates on Rowan, running, and just life in general. I really should blog more. She still naps in my arms so I have plenty of time – but Netflix.

Let’s start with updating you on the life of Rowan because she’s the star of the show now. She has gotten exponentially cuter if that’s even possible. I love how she can interact with us now and is developing a personality. She is obsessed with her doorway bouncer and we have evening dance parties to kidz bop while she bounces. We have absolutely no daytime routine so she just naps when she’s tired and eats when she’s hungry. According to the internet, that’s not how you’re supposed to do it, but it works for us.

I have given up on trying to get her to nap in the crib (for now) and focused on getting her to fall asleep on her own and sleep through the night. I was so terrified of letting her cry it out because I knew it would just break my heart. We took a gentle approach to it and stayed by her crib while she cried, reassuring her she wasn’t abandoned, until she fell asleep. We’re about 5 weeks in and some nights are better than others. However, I am able to get 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep if I go to bed early, so that’s a win!

We have started feeding her some solid foods – baby oatmeal, carrots, sweet potato, avocado, mango, peanut butter, and banana. She loves bananas!! Our pediatrician suggested PB2 to introduce peanuts to her. I didn’t want the added sugar, so I found this brand of Powdered Peanuts to mix with her baby oatmeal. We bought this awesome little gadget for feeding. She is learning to hold it on her own and feed herself. Although she drops it a lot and then gets frustrated and then cries and then the fun is over.

Rowan went on her first plane ride and big girl trip to San Francisco. She has had two diaper blowouts in her entire life. One on the flight out there. And one on the flight back. Both within the first hour of the flight. I just threw her clothes away and laughed. What a memory to share with her one day. The trip was great and she was a trooper. Although being away in a big city for a few days really made us miss the comforts of our home. But we did get to see Andrew’s brother and his wife and enjoyed watching them love on our Rowan.

Ok, we can talk about me and my running now. I am beginning to run more during the week which has been so nice. With the temperatures trying to cool down and Rowan old enough for stroller runs, we get out at least 3-4 times/week – and sometimes with other moms and stroller babies. Her longest stroller run has been 13.1 miles (just under 2 hours, might I add). Some runs are better than others and some I am sitting in the middle of a park nursing her at mile 6 to try and calm down and nap. This is the  BOB jogging stroller we use. And this is the  Sun Shield and  Weather Shield we use.

I ran a 5K when she was 5 months old and really shocked myself. I honestly had no idea what to expect but was so happy when my average pace was sub 8:00. This was the first race ever where I ran negative splits and I finished feeling so good – so now I am a believer of that method. I know that’s what the pros do and what you’re supposed to do, but it’s just so hard sometimes.

I have my first big race coming up this month. The Fort Worth half marathon. This is the race where I ran my marathon PR two years ago. I don’t really have a goal but I’d like to run sub 2 hours which I think I can do. So I guess that’s a goal. And I do want to try to negative split. Andrew is running the marathon distance of this race and is totally going to crush it.

I have yet to track mileage since Row entered this world. I run when I can and as far as I can – or feel like. I have followed a weekend buildup of mileage with my local running club for my upcoming half, but my weekday runs are sporadic. I was curious, and then pleasantly surprised, with my October mileage – most of which was with a stroller. I do feel like we  f i n a l l y  found our groove at almost 7 month post-partum. She’s beginning to enjoy the stroller (or at least tolerate it). And I’m emotionally and physically feeling more back to normal, although it took much longer than I anticipated. Pregnancy may end once baby arrives but you are still not YOU for quite some time following. This was unexpected. But these miles are little reminders that the ME before Rowan still does exist, just in a different form – as her mom. New, not necessarily improved, but definitely changed for the better.

Well that’s the life of Rowan thus far, and a little about me. I’ll try to pop in more often to say hello, but in the meantime you can keep up with us at www.instagram.com/fitandfaithful.mom


And on a side note to any other new moms who may be reading this or follow my instagram – PLEASE remember that people only share the highlights of life. If you want to feel better about yourself or situation, let’s chat and I’ll share all the dark, lonely, and un-fun parts of being a new mom because it’s not all rainbows and unicorns. 

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Rowan is 4 months old + I signed up for my first race

I have a 4 month old. That’s 1/3 of a year. In 212 months, she’ll be leaving for college. Surely someone has discovered how to make time stop by now. I loved my sleepy little newborn, but this 4 month old who smiles at me every morning, giggles at my funny faces, naps in my arms, and stops crying when I hold her is my favorite.

Rowan is slowly getting used to napping in her crib. I try it once each day and she now holds a 40 minute crib napping PR. I think the days of two hour naps are over, so maybe 40 minutes in her crib is actually pretty awesome.

I lost my credit card and threw my phone away all in the same day. Technically, Andrew threw my phone away, but I put it in the box I asked him to trash. Whatever, I just had a baby. That’s my excuse for everything. So I bought this phone case that holds my credit cards in the back so now I only have to keep up with one thing.

Rowan’s been great about being super content chillin’ in her swing while I walk around the kitchen or am on the treadmill. I planned to log an easy 30 minute run while she watched and then she fell asleep. Yes!! ASLEEP!! She hasn’t done that since she was a newborn. In the past she’d always wake up when I stopped running – I’m guessing because the noise changed. So I kept going until she woke up because ‘never wake a sleeping baby‘. Six miles and an hour later, she woke up. I guess I can’t complain but I really didn’t feel like running 6 miles that day. A treadmill is one expensive white noise machine.

Everyone says their kids are their motivation for working out. I totally get that now. But not in the sappy “I want to be a good example for them” way because let’s be honest, she has no idea what I’m doing. But her sleep motivates/forces me to keep running. I headed out for a run while Andrew watched her. I texted 3 miles in and told him I quit because I was just not feeling it. He responded letting me know she was asleep. Which means if I were to come home, our dogs would do their thing and wake her. DANGIT!! So I got in another 6 miler. I think it was actually 6.48 and no I did not finish it out to an even 6.50 because I was that over it!

So that was two unplanned 6-milers thanks to my sweet, sleepy baby. #motivation

I also hit my first double-digit run!! 10 whole miles. It was really tough mentally. I was super lonely because I’m so used to logging my long runs with my running group. But I did it and was pretty proud! I have a 5K coming up and I plan to do a half in the fall. That’s as far as I’ve gotten with planning out races. I’m taking my time and not getting ahead of myself.

I’ve been trying to unplug from my phone a bit more. Since Rowan naps in my arms I’m on the couch for several hours each day. I used to mindlessly play on my phone or watch a show on Netflix that turned really dumb by the third season. Seriously, I think everyone in Rosewood is ‘A’. But lately I’ve tried reading more. I know that’s not really productive but I feel like it powers my brain a bit more. I’ve read The Husband’s Secret and Three Wishes and I’m currently reading What Alice Forgot .

These last four months have gone by too fast and I know time will only go faster. I’m beginning to forget what life was like before her and that’s okay with me.

When did your baby start sleeping through the night?

How old was your baby when you ran you first post-partum race? 


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Mom moments + longest run + my first coffee

  1. Rowan is 3 1/2 months old.

She’s still sleeping like a rockstar. Most nights she wakes up for one feeding anywhere between 3-5am and then is up for the day around 6am. I love this schedule!! MOM MOMENT: One morning, Rowan thoughtfully woke at 5am for a feeding which allowed me time for a run outside before Andrew left for work. When I returned, she was STILL sleeping. Whose baby is this? I showered in our guest bathroom and dried off with kitchen towels because “never wake a sleeping baby”.

We couldn’t have asked for a better nighttime sleeper, but she’s a finicky napper. We’re not on a schedule and not trying to be on one. I know when she’s tired and that’s when she naps – however, it’s in my lap. Yes, we’ve tried it all. She prefers to snuggle and I don’t mind. We are working towards getting her to nap in here crib. MOM MOMENT: I had just showered and was still in a towel when I was trying to get her to nap in her crib (which is in our bedroom). It worked!! She fell asleep!! So in stealth mode, I escaped our room without waking her… still in a towel with absolutely no clothes in any other areas of or home except the quietness of our room where my baby was sleeping. Normally not a big deal, except in 30 minutes I had out-of-town family arriving. Fortunately and unfortunately, her crib nap lasted 25 minutes. But at least that’s a start.

I logged my longest post-partum run recently. NINE MILES! Our neighborhood is extremely flat so I ran to a hill that’s a 1/4 mile from top to bottom and climbed it 8 times. I held a 9:13 average pace for the run and felt really good about it.

I also destroyed my legs with a strength training workout while Rowan watched from the stroller. She loved having me jump around in front of her. I did a bunch of variations of lunges and squats with some pylometrics thrown in there. It hurt to walk for a couple of days which makes carrying a baby around tough.

I started drinking coffee again.  I haven’t had coffee in 14 MONTHS!! That’s an extremely long time for a person who had multiple cups of coffee daily for years! I cut it out before I got pregnant because I didn’t want to drink it while I was pregnant (just my personal choice) and I didn’t want to go through withdrawals and morning sickness at the same time. Although, I ended up not having morning sickness. After Rowan was born, I chose to hold off on drinking it because I was nervous it would affect her through nursing. I felt comfortable to give it a try so I made a 1/2 caff + 1/2 decaf cup. Then she needed me, and an hour later after microwaving it, I got to enjoy my first cup of coffee. MOM MOMENT: microwaved coffee.

It’s so stinkin’ hot outside and especially for Rowan in her car seat. Our car doesn’t have rear A/C so we bought a Noogle. It’s really pretty awesome!!! We’re still playing with placement but it’s been so helpful in quickly cooling down the back of the car. We also travel with our dogs sometimes so I know it’ll for sure come in handy for that.

These past few weeks I’ve watched my sleepy newborn turn into a wiggly baby that’s beginning to interact with the world and become her own person. As much as I want her to stay little forever, I love how she no longer seems as fragile and is becoming my little buddy.

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Three Months: Baby + Running Update


I’ve been a mom now for three months. Has it been the greatest life changing experience of all time? Life changing for sure. And some moments have been quite wonderful. If you haven’t read Rowan’s sweet birth story, you can here. That was the sugarcoated version I will tell her when she is older. I’ll spare her the details about how I was absolutely panicked and so drugged up from the epidural that I hardly remember her first few hours of her life. Maybe I’ll share that reality for when she is expecting a little one of her own.

I can share the sweetened highlights of these past three months, but how about just an update on what’s actually been going on with our new family of three.

C-Section Recovery: I was not prepared for this as I had only found out 16 hours before my water broke that Rowan was breech and I would likely need a c-section. I didn’t have time to do all the googling. When the epidural wore off and I was finally able to stand up, it felt like my insides were on fire and going to fall out. Like my abs had been ripped open and I was terrified to sneeze, cough, laugh, move, breath. Everything was painful. I relied on my leg strength so much because I had no core. Although it eventually got easier, it was a solid two weeks before the soreness wore off. And when you are nursing a newborn every two hours, there is a lot of sitting up and core movement. I was miserable.

Allergic Reaction: As they were prepping me for the c-section they asked if I was allergic to surgical tape. I said no. Apparently this was incorrect. I am severely allergic to surgical tape. And after 24 hours of this tape burning my skin, I finally realized something was wrong and it wasn’t my incision causing this horrific feeling. I will spare you gory details, but I’ll leave it at blisters and open wounds all on my stomach surrounding my incision. Now I have scars from this. No stretch marks, but scars from that stupid tape. Honestly, my skin hurt worse than the incision and surgery. I mean, imagine the worse blister on your foot after a marathon, but put that all over your stomach. Everything that touched it hurt and showering was brutal. I cringe just writing about it.

Nursing: We have been exclusively breastfeeding and I am beyond grateful this has worked for us. However, we had a very rough start. The first two weeks were absolutely painful and miserable. I cried almost every time she nursed. I dreaded the two hour mark when I had to feed again. We also battled with Rowan preferring one side for a few days so that side never got a break to heal. Around the 5/6 week mark, I realized I had an oversupply. Not a good thing! So then we had to work through that. Finally at two months, I felt like I knew what I was doing and it’s been decently easy since then.

Between the raw skin on my stomach and pain from breastfeeding, I basically spent two weeks unclothed in my house. The beauty of motherhood…

Sleep: We are blessed. Praise the Lord we have a baby that is a good sleeper. From day one, she has slept in her bassinet with no problems. We lay her down, and she goes to sleep. Even now she can put herself to sleep. At first I had to wake her every 3 hours to feed because she was so little and not gaining weight quickly enough, but by 5 weeks she was able to sleep 4 hours, then a few weeks later 5-6, and now we can get 9 hour stretches pretty regularly.

Napping: Rowan was a napping champion at the beginning. I thought I hit the jackpot. I could put her in her swing and she would nap away. I would even have to wake her to feed. I got so much done. I could clean the house, make dinner, lay on the couch and try to nap myself, really anything I wanted. That all changed at two months. Now Rowan prefers insists on napping in my arms or in the front carrier snuggled up next to me. I am not complaining. I love snuggling with her and house chores can wait. But it can get tiresome. She also isn’t the greatest napper anymore so we deal with an overtired baby every few days.

Milestones: I hate milestones. I hate getting those emails that say, “your baby is 8 weeks old, they should be smiling at you.” Well my baby didn’t smile at me. Then I had a huge crying meltdown because it had to be my fault she wasn’t smiling. I hadn’t bought her one of those expensive activity mats. So I walked through Target, crying, to buy an activity mat. My husband talked some sense into me. I returned the mat and three days later Rowan smiled… at Andrew. That is one example of how having a baby makes you irrational. Just like every pregnancy is different, so is every baby. And I have to remember that she is premature and adjust for that.

Diapers: We’re cloth diapering and it’s awesome! I have spent less than $400 and have enough diapers and supplies to get me to her potty training years. If you’re considering going the cloth route, do it! It’s intimidating and there isa learning curve but it’s so easy and cheap once you get the hang of it. Check out fluffloveuniversity.com for an overwhelming amount of information.

Weightloss: I gained 25 pounds during pregnancy and lost them all by my 5 week appointment when I was released for exercise. It was easy and I didn’t have to do anything to lose them. I assumed when I started running and exercising more weight would just pour off my body. I gained 10-15 pounds while I was trying to get pregnant so I do feel like I have more weight to lose. Since I started running 9 weeks ago, I have lost 0 pounds. So I am putting my scale away, continuing to exercise, continuing to eat nourishing foods for my health and for Rowan since she eats what I eat. I grew a human and most days don’t care about my weight. But some days I do care and try not to. I can’t believe I was ever self-concious when I was at my smallest.

Running: My first run was May 13th. I ran one mile without stopping then walked and ran the next two for three miles total. It was hard but manageable. Every run since then I have been able to run without walking. I run about 3-4 days/week. Most are on the treadmill since I am not running with Rowan in her stroller yet. I have been able to log 4-7 miles outside on Saturday mornings, but the rest have been either been easy runs or speed work on the treadmill. I use the term “speed work” loosely as it’s not like I am doing sprints. I am just running a little quicker than a comfortable pace for short distances. It has helped the time on the treadmill go by much faster and since I have a short amount of time until Rowan wakes up, I have to get in the most effective workout. I don’t have any goals but I do get discouraged at times. Mentally I feel like my old self, but my body can’t keep up.

Other workouts: I have been doing light core work to help reengage the muscles that were cut apart. With a c-section, the literally make a vertical incision to separate your abs. I also do some strength training 2-3 times/week with handweights. On our stroller walks, I will do some walking lunges and squats. Rowan loves to sit in her stroller and watch me jump around.

Dogs: Our dogs are great with Rowan. They have shown no agression towards her. Our boxer acts like a big sister and our chihuahua couldn’t care less. However, they have driven me absolutely insane. I mean almost to the point of tears. It’s all my fault. I spoiled them rotten. They were my babies before I had a baby. I know I can’t expect them to change overnight, but they have made having a baby so much more challenging. Aside from the barking that Rowan can no longer sleep through, they basically walk around our house searching for things to get into – trash cans, laundry, diapers, everything. No they are not rebelling. They just have more opporunities to do what they always did now that I am home all the time. I do love them, but gosh they make it hard.

All in all, it’s been an amazingly challenging three months. We’ve had our highs and lows but it’s a huge adjustment. Maybe other moms go through this, but the adrenaline of being a new mom has started to wear off. At first everything was new and now I’m adjusting to this being my life now. I don’t FEEL like I just had a baby and I don’t be FEEL like I did before I had a baby. I’m learning what this new me ‘feels’ like.


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Rowan’s Birth Story

Happy due date, baby girl. I felt it appropriate to share about your birthday on the day you were supposed to be born. As scary as it was to have you arrive nearly a month early, these past 26 days have been wonderful having you here.


My sweet Rowan Grey, here is the story of how you entered the world.

Thursday, April 6th, your daddy and I went to our 36 week appointment. We heard your heartbeat and the doctor confirmed on the ultrasound you were still feet down with your head snuggled up against my rib. He told us that at our next appointment we would have to decide if we wanted to do a Version where the doctor would try and turn you or if we wanted to schedule a c-section. I wasn’t at peace with either of these options, but knew a healthy baby was far more important than any of my desires. We were less at peace with a doctor trying to force you to turn so we decided we’d schedule a c-section at our next appointment if you didn’t turn on your own.

That afternoon I took your four-legged sister, Molly, on a walk and just prayed and talked to you. I prayed that you would turn and that we wouldn’t have to make the decision to have a c-section. I prayed God would show me what I needed to do to help you turn. As I walked I realized you may be breech for a reason. Maybe that was the safest position for you. The more I walked the more at peace I was with how you may join the world and knew a c-section may be our only option. I then felt sad that I would be choosing your birthday for you with a scheduled delivery. I wanted so much for you to surprise us with your arrival. I prayed that you would come before the scheduled date so you could at least choose your own birthday.

That evening, your daddy and I finished up some chores and before bed he coincidently and conveniently packed his hospital bag. I had asked him for a few weeks to pack, just in case, and that night he finally chose to. We briefly slept and at 11:55 p.m. my water broke.

Baby girl, I was so scared. I knew what was happening and what it meant, but it just wasn’t time. You weren’t due for another four weeks. Your daddy and I sat there shaking as I called the hospital, fully knowing they would tell me to come in. I knew this time would come. I prayed just hours before that you would surprise us with your arrival. I didn’t expect my prayers to be answered so soon. The whole time I kept thinking about how little you must be.

We arrived at the hospital and quickly found ourselves in a room with nurses all around us. I was hooked up to monitors and just laid there listening to your heartbeat and trying so hard to feel your moves. I was terrified something would happen to you. Nurses and doctors kept asking me questions and I kept replying ‘I don’t know, I still have 4 more weeks’. They prepared us for the possibility of you being rushed to the NICU or at least a lengthy stay in the nursery after delivery. This is not how I wanted your little life to begin. The nurses told me that babies will either come out pink or white and we wanted a pink baby. So I prayed for a pink baby.

I was wheeled into the delivery room and they brought your daddy in right before they began the c-section. Thinking of you and your sweet face kept me calm. All I wanted was to hear your little cries. At 2:29 a.m. on April 7th, you were born. I didn’t hear you cry. I kept asking if you were ‘white’, and a sweet nurse leaned close and asked if I was expecting a ‘black’ baby. No, just a ‘pink’ one. And then I heard you cry. It was labored, but you were crying. Your daddy kept rushing back and forth to check on us both. I am sure he was so overwhelmed with joy and shock. They helped your little lungs and then gave you to your daddy. He was the first to hold you. He is the first man that will ever hold you and love you.

You were finally placed in my arms and my whole world changed. I became a mommy in an instant. What a sweet surprise you were.


We were and still are so incredibly lucky that you were born perfectly healthy. No visits to the NICU. No stay in the nursery. You remained in my arms the whole time we were in the hospital. You passed every check and test with no problems and each time we thanked God for our healthy baby.

You made April 7th the sweetest day of the year instead of a dark reminder of our loss. On April 7, 2016, we had a miscarriage. On April 7, 2017, you made us a mommy and daddy.

We love you, sweet baby girl.



Photography – sarahephoto.com

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Since the 2016 Boston Marathon


With the 2017 Boston Marathon just days away, I have been reflecting on this past year – and oh what a year it has been. In March 2016, right before my Boston race, we decided to start trying for a family. I assumed if we got pregnant right away then I would either not know until after the race or I would still be able to run it with no problems as I was already trained. I guess I just had a strong case of baby fever. On April 13, 2016 – I sat in a doctor’s office in tears not understanding what was going on with my body. I was having a miscarriage. This is the last thing I ever expected to happen to us, and after finding out how common it is I am surprised it never crossed my mind. You can read more about that here

The following day, we boarded a plane and headed to Boston for my first time running the Boston Marathon. It was finally a dream come true. I had spent the past two to three years trying to qualify to get in and then training for the race. I was also excited for it to come and go because I knew I needed a break mentally, and physically, and it was the perfect time to take a step back and have a baby. The Boston Marathon was the final thing on my ‘pre-baby bucket list’ and I was ready to check it off. You can read about my story to Boston here. It wasn’t easy for me to qualify.

Boston Marathon

We had the most amazing vacation in Boston. Looking back, I feel a little guilty for having such a fun time after we had just learned about our loss, but honestly we left the doctor with hope that we can get pregnant and it just wasn’t the right time. Plus, I didn’t actually know I was pregnant until it was all over. I never had the initial excitement of taking a test and the days of knowing I was pregnant. I only found out we had a Chemical Pregnancy (early miscarriage) because of what my body was going through and I knew something wasn’t right. It wasn’t until months later and we still weren’t pregnant that I started to really feel sadness. So being in Boston was much-needed time away and I had the best time touring a new city with Andrew. We walked 15-18 miles each day (yes, before the race) just exploring everything! It really is one of my favorite vacations with him. You can read about our trip here, here, and here.


The race was amazing! I just ran. I had no goals and my body was still recovering a little from everything that had happened. It was peaceful and amazing. I clearly remember certain spots on the course and my favorite was the final 4 miles as I was getting closer to the finish line and knew I’d get to see Andrew. It truly is an unforgettable and indescribable experience! You can read the race recap here.


I came home with excitement about what the future held – although it took us quite a bit of time to get pregnant again. It was a hard few months that felt like forever. I gained some weight and cut back on running to try to get my body ‘in sync’ to have a baby. Without going into too much detail, my cycle was basically completely out-of-whack or non-existent. It had been this way for years. It was a really frustrating phase with a few trips to the doctor. On August 16, 2016, I was again sitting in a doctor’s office crying not understanding why my body ‘wasn’t working’ and looking for answers on how to fix it. I found out 10 days later I was actually pregnant at that appointment. God has a funny way of things falling into place and teaching us patience. You can read our announcement here.


And for the past 8 months I have been pregnant and we just celebrated the birth of our baby Rowan on April 7th. What a sweet early surprise we had. You can read all my weekly pregnancy updates here as well as posts about things I have learned in pregnancy. I ran through a majority of my pregnancy. Well, more like a run/walk but stopped around 28 weeks. I had never felt more hardcore in any of my workouts than when I ran with a big belly. There is something about running while you’re pregnant that makes you feel totally awesome!!


When Boston 2018 rolls around next year, I will have a one-year old and probably no where close the shape I was in when I first qualified. I do have goals to make it back there one day and I do have goals in my post-partum journey back to running. I don’t want to get too ahead of myself and stating planning as I have no idea what life will be like with a newborn – but I am so excited to begin this new journey as a runner mom.

Good luck to all of you 2017 Boston Marathoners. May your feet be quick and your minds be focused on having fun and enjoying the experience!!


As much as I enjoyed my Boston experience, nothing beats the experience of becoming a mommy.


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